Sometimes..

Sometimes,

i really hate myself.

i don't know what i am doing.

i don't know what is happening to me.

i think i got too much time to spare.

i wish i can die while i am sleeping.

i don't know what i really want.

i think i am too emotional.

i think i cry too much for nothing.

i fear for the unknown.


OR


may it's just that i think too much..


I hate this kinda of feeling!! Argghhh..

Feeling lost..

I don't know what happen to me..

It's like when i was young, every night i sleep, my tears started to roll down my eyes.. May b for some reasons or no reasons.. It started to happen again, a few weeks ago.. Almost every night that i lay in my bed and prepare to sleep, tears roll down my eyes.. Am i crying? Sometimes, i really don't know.

For the few months, i am doing relief while waiting for my new job training to start. The school term is coming to end now, i will be jobless very soon. And the training is further delayed to an open date where initially it should start around this period. My parents asked me: "Is it worth the wait?" I really don't know.

At first thought, it was great to have a perm job secured. But now, it doesn't look so good as i am not being paid while waiting for the training to start. Plus, my bf and mum had voiced out that they are not very willing to let me work there. Thus, i am now asking myself, "Is it really worth the wait?", rejecting other job offers and waited for this job to commence.

Sometimes, i wonder if i had made the right decision.. Like in econs, the opportunity cost is always there.. Am i loosing too much in terms of time and money for this?

And also, sometimes i feel that i am insensitive to people around me, especially towards my boyfriend. Deep down, i know exactly what he is able to give and what he can't.. Probably better than anyone and even himself.. But i still compliant and ask for the impossible.. And always after asking those questions, i regret what i had said to him..

"Why do i have to do that?", I asked myself. "Why am i so mean?" "What do really want from him?" "Am i a good gf?" "Why didn't i spare a thought for him in the first place?" So Many WHY!!

Sometimes, i hate myself doing all these things and making all these decisions. I really don't know what i want! This is so irritating!! Arggghhhh...

I need to sort things out quickly or i have a feeling that i will go into depression soon.. ha~ Or will i?

My Bro on the newspaper!! So Proud!!

My Brother is on the Newspaper called ZB Comma, a Newspaper mainly for secondary school students. I am so proud of him.. ha~ Do check his creations on this website: www.justusproduct.webs.com, It's Free for Download!! Try out your very first paper toy by simply printing them from the website..

My brother on the front page!! Wow!!

That's the online article..

That's all for now.. :)

"Moving Notes with Chen Wei Lian" Autograph Session

Yoyo.. Just Attended Wei Lian's Autograph Session at Lot 1 Roof Garden (Level 5) with my brother, dad and relatives. (Must Give Support de la..) It is to promote his third album "Moving Notes". There were games that he played with his Fans like "Don't forget the lyrics", Songs sang by himself and finally the autograph session.

Well-printed Flyer given out by his Fans, "Blue Angels"..

It's Wei Lian singing his new song from his latest album..

Hee hee.. Taking a Chicky photo with his poster stand.. ha~


His Autograph session..



Then, it was my turn.. Ha~



There you go.. His signature and a special stamp from the event..

Me and my Dad!

The whole event lasted for 2 hrs. It was quite enjoyable. Will like to attend more of such session.. :)

That's all for now..

Gundam Fiesta Singapore 2009

Yoz, I went to Gundam Fiesta yesterday with my brother. One main reason because i can't stand the noise coming from the renovation of my block.. I wanted to take a nap but the noise is just unbearable! So, the best thing is to get out of the house! Where to? Gundam Fiesta!

The Fiesta is held at Compass Point, a long travelling journey for my brother and i. It's the 30th Anniversary of Gundam, so there's this fiesta. It not only have some exhibition of Gundam, there's also 20% discount for regular price products. (if i am not wrong abt the discount) Plus, there are also some event exclusive Gundam and one of them was the first to be release outside Japan. (How cool was tht? But was sold out already!)

Gundam Fiesta Singapore 2009

Huge Poster with many character of Gundam Series

The Overview of the exhibition Section

The Overview of the Activity Area and Sales Booth




Huge Model of Gundam (I think it's the same as the one that i saw at the Singapore Games, Toy and Comic Convention)


Another Huge Model..



Zhu Ge Liang Gundam (aka Kong Ming)


Zhao Yun Gundam (aka Zhao Zi Long)

Some Event Exclusive Models..

Another Zhao Zi Long Gundam (Limited Edition / Event Exclusive too!)

Another Event Exclusive Gundam..

Some Photos of the Exhibit Models.. (They are just model to me.. Don't ask me who are they or what Series they belong to.. Cos i am consider a Gundam Idiot. ha~) Showcasing them cos i think they look nice.. :P

Quite Cool with the accessories..

This photo looks like poster to me.. But they are models.. ha~

Another group of models.. And one of them are Not for Sale orh!

A model of their Hobby Centre..

The "blueprint" of a Gundam Model..

Prototype of a Gundam..

Uniform of the Hobby Centre.. (Looks like Cosplay Costume to me, Hee..)

One great thing about this Fiesta is that i have the opportunity to do my very first Gundam Model at the Gundam Model Kits Caravan! I have the chance to assemble my own Model Kit. The thing is that i was never interested to do one myself.. I always see my brother do it back at home. And my brother sign-up at the booth to do this activity.

It's an hour activity. I was thinking what i am suppose to do for that one hour at the mall.. Then, my brother says that since you are here, why not you try one.. Anyway, i have nothing better to do there too. Most important thing is that it is Free of Charge!! Ha~

The Activity Corner.. (adult session)

I was one of the very few girls in my session and i was the oldest among them.. I should have join the adult session instead lor. But anyway, doing it with kids are more fun.. Ha~

The Marker holder.. So nice..

Me assembling my very first Gundam.. Concentrating.. There are many some parts for tht model that i do..

There you go.. It's the complete model done by my brother.. It can have different pose orh~

Tht's the guy who help us during the session.. And the 8 years old kid sitting beside me.. He is a joker lor.. He keep dropping the model's head and then ask us, "Where is my Head?"..

Me being Chicky, replied "It's on top of your neck.. Ha~"

In the end, most of his model is done by the helper.. ha~ Poor Helper..

That's my brother putting colors on his model..

There you go, my very own model.. Completed with a sense of satisfaction..

Taking a photo with my own Model and the huge model.. (Can see my model on my hand?)

Last but not least, my brother made a purchase a one of these model made of recycled plastic before leaving the Fiesta. (We purchase the model on the right-hand side because the left-hand side model will only be available on Friday)

That's all for now.. :)

Just for your information the Fiesta will be on from 2 Sept 09 till 13 Sept 09 (if i am not wrong with the dates..) Do drop by if you are free.. Ciaoz..

Happenings in August!

Hmmm.. It's been a month or so since i last blog.. Well, Warning First! This is going to be a long blog.. With quite a number of photos too.. Ha~

Firstly, I went to Mediacorp Studio for the recording of Don't Forget the Lyrics (Ep 11) starring Tan Wei Lian, Chai Chun Jia and Shi Xin Hui. It's not the first time in the Studio watching a recording. It's still fun and interesting to go there. You may see me on screen as an audience.. Ha~ (Quote from Auntie Lucy: So embarrassing!) Here's some photo taken then:

That's my Brother holding the admission ticket!

That's me!

The "Blue Ticket" to watch the recording..

A last take at outside mediacorp before we went for our dinner..

Then, it was 9Th August (Singapore's National Day)! As a typical Singaporean, i am considerate pretty Kiasu.. Since i couldn't get the parade tickets and I wanted to watch the fireworks with my family. Most importantly, i don't wanna squeeze with all the ppl. I made a reservation at Hotpot culture located at Marina Square roughly 1 month in advance to make sure i have a gd spot to watch the fireworks. Ha~

This year is the second time, I watch the fireworks with my family.. I really enjoyed the time that i spend with them. Plus, i got a special guest who agreed to come along for the dinner. It's my bf! I am glad that he agreed to come to have dinner with my family. And i guess this is the first time we all have dinner together. It mean alot to me! Thanks Dear!!

Our gd view!! Look it's the National Flag!

A group photo!!

My Bro and Me (In Red and White)

My Dad and Me!!

The Men in the Family!!

Fireworks!! Woohoo~

P.S. This is also the first time in many yrs that my dad took the MRT cos he usually drives his car. He behaved like a curious little kid in the train.. So cute~

Then, I went to the Singapore Toy, Games and Comic Convention 2009 on the Friday and Sunday of the event! It was so much fun with the cosplayers, lots of toys and games.. Plus i have a new favourite after the convention.. BLYTHE DOLL!!

There was this Dubbing Competition by Animax. And my bro n i went to give it a try at the convention.

Before going in.. Nervous!!

During the recording, i think i did a lousy job.. But it was a fun experience!!

My bro's turn.. Ha~

There were many cosplayers during this event. And i manage to take photo with some of them..

Am i cool or not?

Wolverine cosplayer..

"L" Cosplayer

I dunno their character but their costume sure look nice!

Another Cosplayer (Must be hot wearing that ard)

Jason Cosplayer

Maple Story Cosplayer

Then, there comes my new favourite!! Hope i can own a customized doll of my own one day.. Any sponsors? One customized doll will cost about SGD$600 and up! But a normal doll will only cost about SGD$220. Anyway, it will be an expensive hobby once i start to collect them.

And the first thing to the collection, their very own book on the dolls. I also have the honour to let the designer of the dolls from Japan to sign on my book.. She is a very nice person and even invited me to a opening in Japan.. The sad thing is that i don't have the money to go there at this moment.

That's us taking a photo.. :)

And then, below are all the photos of the dolls that i took during the convention.. Some of them are winning dolls from competitions.

A photo with the huge poster of Blythe Doll

Singapore Zoo is also at the convention to advertise.. They were selling the aminal plush.

Me~

When i was young, i used to own a number of the barbie dolls. These are collections.. So pretty!!

One funny photo that i took when i saw them in action..

I also wanna take one~ haha.. Acting cool!!

Star Wars Characters appearing at the convention as cosplayers..

But they are there for a gd cause..

It's for charity.. Take a photo with them and donate $$ to the Make-a-Wish foundation!!

Here's the charges..

And how can we leave the convention without taking a photo with the Star Wars Characters?? :)

Some other happenings in the month of August, i went out with my bro more than 3 times. I think this is the only period of time that we as siblings went out together. I enjoy the time that i spend with him and i know that deep down i will not have such a chance to go out with him or spend time with him in the near future. The reason being, he will be enlist to the police force and i will start my job training in end oct or early nov. Once i start to work, i won't have time to spend time with him..

I am a relief teacher for the past few months. I had the opportunity to go back to my primary to do relief for a day. Met up with my then teachers, some look older and some still as beautiful!! It feel good to go back there again..

On wednesday and thursday, i received a red pen and a flower from my students as teacher's day present!! Very sweet of them!! So i am a happy gal!! ha~

One last thing, i manage to sell off 2 pairs of earrings that i made.. So happy!!

That's all for now..

Ciaoz..

A Priceless Expression of a Little Boy in Love..

I saw this video of this little boy who is in love with a girl on facebook from a link that my friend posted. He is such a cutie!! The best part of this video is his last expression!! His expression is simply priceless.. Take a look at it and you will definitely agree with me!!

Bingz out!